Double Standard

Why do people accept that guys are promiscuous? I hate to hear people use the excuse that "men will be men". I dont think having a dick gives you the right to be, for the lack of a better word, a hoe. One of my homegirls will sleep with her boyfriend ever time he wants to, even when she doesnt and it hurts. She says its cause he's a man and if he cant get it from her, he will go and get it from someone else. Side note, I hate him! I really wish she wasnt so stupid over him. Wise up and realize that she can do way better. Back to the topic, i just dont get it at all. Why do people make excuses for guy? Like our penises have minds of their own and we just cant control. A man just cant be horny and nothin about it cause we are men. We have needs that have to be fulfilled and whatever we do is ok. Ive never been into casual sex, i like to have a connection with the person. So if im not dating anyone, i dont have sex. I also dont like to "pleasure myself". If your like everyone else, your thinking "WHAT???"........LOL. Guys always think im either lying or crazy. Then they use the excuse "You have to do something, you are a man afterall." Why is it so hard to believe that a man can control his hormones. I dont have to go lookin for it just cause i have a hard-on.

New job

Awhile back i was a having a casual convo with a customer at my job. She asked me if i liked workin at Einsteins (the bagel shop from hell) and i have her the standard response. "I hate my job!" Thats when she told me that life is too short not to do what you love. At the moment, im not doin something i love. I did have an interview last week. I was really excited about it. I had a good feeling that i would get this, but i didnt. To be honest, i really havent put 100% of myself into finding a better job, but its sorta not my fault. Let me explain. Ive been allowing men to distract me from focusing on me. Ive just been talking to a couple of guys (When i say talking i mean conversation, not fucking). At one point i felt kinda overwhelmed cause i was talkin to about 6 guys at one time. Eventually I began to weed out the "bad apples" and narrowed it down to one. I liked him and wanted to see where it would go. I didnt want to rush into anything and ive never been a fan of casual sex, so all we did was make out. After about a month he told me that he only wanted to be friends cause theres another guy he likes more. Me being born under the signs of Cancer, The Boar, and having a life path number of 2 love is sorta embedded into my DNA. Anyone that knows about astrology or numerology knows that my sign lives for love. Like the song says "The greatest thing you will ever learn is just to love and be loved in return." So, its like in my nature to look for love, true love. This pursuit of true unfading love is a distraction from making myself happy. If your not even happy with yourself, you cant be happy with someone else. So i have to put a conscience effort into focusing on making me happy. I mean, im happy with my life, but im not totally satisfied. I know i can do better and deserve better(not to sound conceited). I dont like my job, i dont have a car, and im not in school. Really the last 2 are dependent upon the first. I need a better job in order to be able to afford a car. With the hours that i work, its difficult to take any kind of classes. So, in order to accomplish these goals, im turning away from the guys and focusing on me. If you want something bad enough, put it out into the universe and it will be given to you.