New job

Awhile back i was a having a casual convo with a customer at my job. She asked me if i liked workin at Einsteins (the bagel shop from hell) and i have her the standard response. "I hate my job!" Thats when she told me that life is too short not to do what you love. At the moment, im not doin something i love. I did have an interview last week. I was really excited about it. I had a good feeling that i would get this, but i didnt. To be honest, i really havent put 100% of myself into finding a better job, but its sorta not my fault. Let me explain. Ive been allowing men to distract me from focusing on me. Ive just been talking to a couple of guys (When i say talking i mean conversation, not fucking). At one point i felt kinda overwhelmed cause i was talkin to about 6 guys at one time. Eventually I began to weed out the "bad apples" and narrowed it down to one. I liked him and wanted to see where it would go. I didnt want to rush into anything and ive never been a fan of casual sex, so all we did was make out. After about a month he told me that he only wanted to be friends cause theres another guy he likes more. Me being born under the signs of Cancer, The Boar, and having a life path number of 2 love is sorta embedded into my DNA. Anyone that knows about astrology or numerology knows that my sign lives for love. Like the song says "The greatest thing you will ever learn is just to love and be loved in return." So, its like in my nature to look for love, true love. This pursuit of true unfading love is a distraction from making myself happy. If your not even happy with yourself, you cant be happy with someone else. So i have to put a conscience effort into focusing on making me happy. I mean, im happy with my life, but im not totally satisfied. I know i can do better and deserve better(not to sound conceited). I dont like my job, i dont have a car, and im not in school. Really the last 2 are dependent upon the first. I need a better job in order to be able to afford a car. With the hours that i work, its difficult to take any kind of classes. So, in order to accomplish these goals, im turning away from the guys and focusing on me. If you want something bad enough, put it out into the universe and it will be given to you.