Sunday, August 22, 2010
What do you want?
Yesterday I watched a movie "The Women", with a star-studded cast. The main character played by Meg Ryan discovers that her husband is having an affair. After receiving all kinds of advice and trying to avoid the situation as much as possible, she ultimately decides to divorce him. While going thru her divorce she hits rock bottom loosing all connection with her friends, her daughter, and herself. She ends up running away to some counseling nature camp for help and meets a character played by Bette Midler (FYI: I love her). After Meg talks to her about how all shes ever wanted was to make everyone else happy ,Bette askes her the question... "What do you want? What makes you happy?". That one question becomes an awakening for Meg and she begins to become "selfish" and goes after her own hopes and dreams dispute what others thought about it. Applying that same question to my life, I ask myself "what do I want?". I feel like I'm going after my dreams, but sometimes I wonder what if. I look at the lives of my high school classmates and I feel like I'm falling behind. Some of them are married, some have kids, some a college degree, a career, a house. Then I look at me. I'm 27, I live in an apartment, going to school part time, and working at a decent job just to get by. I know everyone in life has their own path to go down, but sometimes you just wonder how things would have been different. If I had gone to college right from high school. If I had taken my future more into consideration instead of letting my present distract me. Maybe that would have been total disaster for me. You know what they say... Everything aint for everybody. I feel like i needed to do a little living before I committed to a plan and I did. I did alot of living, alot of learning, and alot of growing. With that I feel like I'm more mature in ways than other people my age. On the flip side of it, I'm sure those same classmates wonder the same thing. If they had moved away from our small town instead of staying how would things be different. I don't regret anything I've ever done. I take every situation in life as a learning experience. I'm so grateful to be able to go to school now and I'm not stopping there. I want to become a kindergarten teacher. I want to open my own restaurant. I want to travel the world and see places I've only ever seen on tv. I want to experience life to the fullest. I have so many thing I want to accomplish in life and even if I'm not there yet, I know I'm on the right path. I have a long life ahead of me and I plan on making the most of it. So when I'm old and grey I can look back on the things I've accomplished and wont have any regrets. I don't wanna say "I wish I did that when I had the chance" I want to be able to leave my children and grand children with someone they look up to and are proud of. So go ahead and ask yourself: "What do I want?"
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Go for your dreams. It is always best to look at where you are and plan for where you want to go. Some people like to call it a five year plan or even a ten year plan. My advice to you is to make a plan and get to work! There are people depending on you and wanting the best for you.
Well, I feel like so much of the problem is the relativity - that we always compare our path in life to the path of others. "Am I where I am supposed to be in my life right now?" Or we compare the path to our own expectations - "Am I where I want to be at this point or where I planned to be?" So much of life is out of our hands, and yet so much of it still is...It makes it scary and exciting and free all at the same time. I think the biggest thing is to aim for your goals and do it when you have set them and are motivated to tackle them....because only then whether you make it as far as you hope or determine the fight is not worth pursuing anymore, for whatever reason, you've lived a life few regrets.
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