Somebody to love

I've always been a relationship person. A hopeless romantic. Wine and dine, picnic under the stars, the whole nine yards. I love having someone there. Someone to come home to and tell them how my day went. It's to the point where I don't know how to be single. Not to where I'm always dating someone, but to where I don't know how to do things by myself and have fun. Tonight I went to the club with some friends (Im not a club person at all) and all I saw were couples. Or atleast I thought they were couples, it's hard to tell who's with who when it comes to gay people. Looking at all these people dancing, kissing, holding hands... Just made me wish I had that special someone to do those things with. I know you can't find happiness in someone else until you find it in yourself first so I've been working on that. I've come a really long way. I've stopped "man hunting" which is when you use the club, dating sites, or any gathering as an opportunity to find your next mate. I had a friend that use to always want to go out some where and man hunt none stop, which it was fun when I was younger, scooping out the club to see whos eye i could catch. Then after awhile I realized instead of having fun and enjoying my friends, I was standing around watching everyone else have fun (Which is probably why I'm not a club person).  I had to mature and grow out of that phase. So I distanced myself from him and surrounded myself with more well rounded people. Ive also stopped wasting my time with guys who have alterior motives for getting to know me (I.E. get in my pants). Im actually not even in the market for dating anyone right now because i know i need to focus on myself at this moment in time. I'm getting more and more comfortable with just being single and enjoying me. I have a great group of friends I can hangout with and have fun. It's just occasionally those old feelings come back and I wonder... When will I find my true love? And as I lay in my king sized bed writing this I'm also thinking... Who does the other side of this bed belong to? As of now, it all belongs to me. I can stretch out from end to end and enjoy it until someone comes along and claims it or not. I just have to get comfortable with the possibility of the "or not".


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